Early Morning Meditations

Sometimes, long after the sun has set....many times, before it rises I sit in peaceful solitude and contemplate the world I've been given.  You know what I'm talking about.  When you're up, but none of your friends are on IM or facebook yet..when it's just you and your thoughts.  Sometimes I think about past relationships, or future challenges...sometimes I just listen to music and vibe.  I used to get mad that I wasn't sleeping, knowing that I'd be tired the next day.  Now I don't do that.  See my reasoning is this...how many times have I stayed up late for whatever reason, and been tired as ever the next day for work?  A lot.  So if I'm up for some reason that's unknown to me I figure there must be a reason for it.  I truly try to appreciate the time, the solitude, my thoughts, my fears, my ambitions, my certainties, my confusions, all of it.